Almost 23 weeks!

I have been going a little crazy lately with the bump pics so I figured I would post them in here. Before I do that, how about a story?

We got to see Abriella yesterday but not because of a scheduled sonogram, because I just KNEW I had some stuff going on that shouldn't be going on and we went to the er so I didn't have to wait to call my dr until Monday and not be seen until Tuesday or Wednesday. Her heart rate was still a strong 150 and she was wiggling like a worm. Turns out I have a yeast infection AND Bacterial Vaginosis AND bacteria in my urine but not enough to be considered a UTI. The dr gave me medication to treat all 3 but I'm not taking the medication for the UTI unless I develop one. I hate taking medication while pregnant. It brings on anxiety for me. Not to mention, the med for the yeast infection was a category c med. I hated taking it but felt relieved when I read about so many women taking it with no issues. I also have a few friends who have taking it, so I took it and Abby is still kicking like crazy and all that today.

It really grosses me out that I have all of these problems but you have to understand that the chemistry in a woman changes A LOT due to raging hormones during pregnancy so, no matter how clean we are (or aren't), it doesn't make a difference.

Anyway, here are pictures! I believe they start at week 22 and go through today which is 22 weeks and 5 days :)

I'm a little bit more than obsessed, wouldn't you say? Those have ALL been taken in the last 2 weeks.

Small bump

I try to focus on the future so hard because, well, the future is absolutely beautiful and stunning in every way. In the future we get to meet our beautiful baby girl and raise her. We get to be parents to this tiny person. We get to watch her get older and we get to be sad for every year older she gets because we never want our baby to stop being our baby. 

Yet, I still think about the past. I still think about Baby Dawson number one. I still get incredibly sad when I hear Gravity by Sarah Bariellis. I still have days when I just want to get the tears and pain out of my system until next time. I still miss that baby. I know, that baby, and losing that baby was all in preparation for this one. We will cherish her more because we wanted and longed for her for so long after losing her older sibling. We have been through much pain on our journey to become Abriellas parents.



I really think that's why I get such bad anxiety when I don't feel her for a while or I start to feel like I might be coming down with the flu. We don't just want her and long for her, we love her and we need her, also. 

I don't think I will ever forget about Baby 1. He/she is FOREVER etched in my mind and memory and heart. That loss will always have an effect on me whether it be good or bad, I will always feel something from that loss. I just hope the waiting and the pain causes us to be fantastic parents for Abby because she so deserves it. 

The 2nd trimester bumps!

Thus far, at least!

12 weeks and 2 days

13 weeks

14 weeks

14 weeks and 1 day

15 weeks

16 weeks

16 weeks and 4 days

17 weeks

18 weeks

19 weeks

19 weeks and 3 days

20 weeks!!!

20 weeks and 4 days (just for fun!)

I will be adding my 21 week bump tomorrow but here they all are for now! And yes, I may be kind of obsessed with the bump ;)

19 weeks 2 days!

Got the anatomy ultrasound today and all is great!

Abby is still a girl.
Her heart rate was 158.
She weighed 10 ounces.
She measured 19 weeks and 2 days (which is what she should be!)
She moved around pretty much the entire time.
She's stubborn.
I have an anterior placenta: http://www.whattoexpect.com/pregnancy/ask-heidi/anterior-placenta.aspx