I guess it does help keep your mind off of things when you are too busy to think about them. When I first started this blog I was in a very dark place as I have been so many months since I had my miscarriage. Well, we bought our house and I have been way too busy with packing/unpacking/cleaning etc to even think about how sad I could have been when I started my period this month. For the first time in months, I didn't cry. I guess I didn't have time to and even when I did have time to, my mind was off in another planet.
I don't know what next month will bring, but I remain hopeful that this is the beginning of me getting over that dark place and climbing to a new place that is full of peace and happiness.
Sometimes a part of me wants to not want a baby anymore because if I make myself believe I don't want a baby, it can't hurt so badly that I don't have one yet, right? Yeah right. I could never make myself believe that.
Anyway, things are better. For now...
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